“So, what do I do now?”

And standing in front of the traffic light, I asked myself “So, what do I do now?” I mean, really: five minutes, ten minutes, fifteen minutes from now, what the hell should I be doing? Where should I go? What do I want to do? Where do I want to go? What’ll happen if I do something? What’ll happen if I go somewhere?
But I couldn’t come up with a single answer to any of those questions.

from The Twins and the Sunken Continent By MURAKAMI Haruki
Translated by Christopher Allison