I feel melancholy

I can quote hundreds or even thousands of quotations about the sadness, but what use of it, even though many of them seem able to reflect my sorrows, but no, non of them can really express it, how does it feel? embarrassed, It’s like you’re naked in front of thousands eyes and no, not a single place for you to hide, then you realized that they’re discussing about how pathetic you are, and you, you begin to hate yourself more than anything you hate. you really want to disappear to somewhere, another place, another time, another century, another universe. no, this is not the way to go about it, I can’t translate these feelings in to sentences. I just feel lost.